( assignments 3-7 )

I apologize for posting only these, plus they're just photos...bleargh

tomorrow's the last day of exams, then it's desutime at Lahti WOOP WOOP

Taikin kolmas here I come, 2. vaiheesta ropsahti sellainen muikea 17/20 pojoo 8D
ps siis kaikista muista kuvista täydet pinnat paitsi nokiairista vaa 2 XD mikä ylläri sinänsä, piirsin sentää brosyyrin vikat sivut suoraan tussilla haha

( assignments 1 and 2 )

Also it's my birthday, but because of the entrance exams that took whopping 9 hours of my day, I'm pretty much just tireeeddd

A I'm embarassed when I spam others friendpages with pics D: but everything nice and tidy under the cut now, this was bothering me.

Somehow I've slept too much although I always try to force myself up after 8-9 hours of sleep, but now it's been more like I sleep 6 hours one night, 14 the next and after that 7 hours.
And writing simple journal descriptions in english feels like a task askjklfdkjh

( things I drew mostly today )


I forgot to show photos OF BEAUTIFUL SUSHI I MADE BECAUSE IM SUCH A WEEABOO and well, it tasted fine I guess but I felt little sick after eating something like 10 pieces. Must be the raw stuff, I'm not used to it.

also i made this


( not quite as planned )

lately all I seem to do is whine but for a reason I SWEAR
so what, I bought new scanner/printer about two months ago and it happens to crash when I'm printing my portfolio out, which is supposed to be mailed to the university this week?

all I can really do is just print them out at the shop which just cost me 52 euros
BEST THING IS this all could be just waste of time AND money, if I don't even get to the exams :D:D
askdjhadsksajhd

( Read more... )

aaa my effectiveness is wearing out. This week I've made 10 pages for the portfolio, which is good and soooo much relief, since there's only few pages to add but hardly anything to write anymore. Also I've spent fair time to sketch comic pages and I propably should keep doing it
rather than 4 other assignments right now, because feel rather lacking in inspiration and energy to paint them.

It's weird that I feel content about works I've done or ideas for those assignments, but still my mind is set to be very pessimistic about getting anywhere. I refuse to think about future much though, idea of failing is likely but I definately don't want to think about continuing my current work...

( 4 )

Right now I'm pretty much hands full with preliminary assignments, but at least I'm psyched up and even though I haven't finished a thing, sketching and ideas are progressing well.
I'm supposed to do a portfolio (right, well, at least I've picked pictures and written some pages), illustrate a poem, illustrate picture based on text from book I've never heard of, write yet another analysis of why I should be a graphic designer, do a picture of ME, fix up some character designs and a storyboard :V
PIECE OF CAKE

Snort, I chose poem from Jean de la Fontaines Fables. Actually there's plenty I can choose from, and WOW WHAT IS THIS I READ THE WHOLE BOOK instead of just leafing through. I did borrow some other poetry from library too but, so far so good.
Also at first I was on the verge of crying because I overthink stuff and I couldn't write a single thing about myself for the portfolio, or the analysis. Then I started thinking I'm just equally bad at everything and lacking and boring, and at that point it was just good I left it be for couple of days and started writing again when I felt less obliged to do it.

( some sketches blargh )

I'm planning to dedicate my week off from work for drawing. I should start doing preliminary assignments for University of Art and Design Helsinki but it makes me really nervous, so I have commissions and few minor things to do along with them...


I don't know even whether I want to study there for graphic designing or to become a teacher. AGAIN I can't decide upon important things. I feel like teachers profession is suitable for me in a way, because I dunno if I'm competent and interesting enough to become a graphic designer. I do apply to Metropolia's graphic design degree too though. If I don't get to study in neither, my only hope is history of arts at the university...but I'm not very confident about it.


NII JA SIT VIEL. Mitä jos TaiKin ja Metropolian kokeet on päällekkäin, ja sanotaan että pyrin ykkösenä TaiKiin pisteiden tähden (vaikka muutoin ehkä metropolia ois ykkönen) ni diskataanko siitäkin et jos pääsis metropolian kokeisiin muttei TaiKin, niin siksi että metropolia on kakkosvaihtoehtona? Ja jos pääsiski molempien kokeisiin ni sitten pitää lie valita että kumpaan menee vai meneekö automaattisesti ykkösen kokeisiin.
Mikä älymälli oikeesti on keksiny että kaikki taidealan kokeet menee aina päällekkäin kun Lahtikin on Metropolian kanssa yhtäaikaa AAAARHGDJ.
Vaadin täsmällisempiä päivämääriä :F

Ja voiko metropoliaan pyrkiessä pyrkii vapaasti kummallekin gra-su linjalle?


-and

I tried inking the other day. Like meditating.

I paid muhvu to fix my website for the reason I can't do tables and I don't like sitting here for hours staring at my website in process :C biggest reason I always grow tired of the layouts I make.

Sooo anyway like always I dream of setting up some page for my characters which would be some small step towards actually drawing/writing stories. And here are pretty bunch of characters that have some thought and reason to exist. It's missing some though, because 3 of them are on my usb drive that I'm too lazy to take here and one should be uploaded on my website or imageshack due to the brute mature content, nipples.


( under the cut )

Pssst I paid my domain for another year and as for that, as soon as I figure at least some nice picture for the layout I'll try to fix some update to it. Clearing up the galleries and writing character biographies, that's about it.



I have a thing for 'young man and a horse'-concept, not just Link and Epona but now Agro and Wanda nnnggghhh I just want to draw them all the time! Only thing is that the horses I draw are incredibly stiff :/

( characters and creatures )

Why is it that if I listen to radio, and they always brag about how they have gazillions of songs in the storage, they always play the same crap twice in a day?

I feel like I've been in coma for few weeks. It's weird that I'm suddenly fairly depressed and I cry a lot, also I've been more sick than in ages. What makes it weird is that it can't be at least the season, because I really like autumn...winter on the other hand is quite horrible.

Anyway I've had already some classes of this preparation course for applying in art schools and sometimes I'm not sure whether it's really good or pretty dumb :D so far all we do is draw lines and boxes and circles. EXTREME. Basics are for justice, but some things are just the same we used to do on first year at upper secondary...I get the feeling like I'm really untalented and bad at art and I still brood over the fact I didn't get the invitation to entrance exams last spring. It was just something that left me thinking that I'm really that bad I don't even deserve a chance in real exams. For I didn't think my applying pics were that hopeless.

( mostly original, some fanarts )

Also my little brothers are the best. I visited my mom couple days ago because my household was in crisis, and anyway, I decided to stay bit longer there since my brothers actually cancelled their hobbies for the evening because they wanted to spend time with me ;__;

well, I've always told people how my youngest brother (10 years) listens to Elvis Presley, and sometimes I've seen him brooding in his bed listening to Elvis. Later I can't help but lol at his emoness :---D of course, he doesn't know what emo means even though his hair is black and cut so that you can't see his eyes well, he has GLASSES on top of that and to sum it up he looks like fashion fevered Harry Potter. It's kinda SCARY how much he has eye for style and art at his age I mean he's also really good at drawing. And yeah he also angsts when we draw together and whispers sadly to me 'you're so much better...' AAAAAGAHGSHGHASG

Computer clock is screwed, so it just randomly shots off dates like today, January 1st 2003 haha, had to fix the one on LJ manually...

My prep course for applying on art schools started yesterday, and the course seems like fun. Other members are mostly about my age, except for one or two adults. Also they all seem nice, only one whiner/whatever-I-just-polish-my-nails chick there.
I still don't know what I want to study really, and is graphic designing even right thing for me - or art-related profession in general - but next spring I'll try and work as much as possible for getting into SOME school.

Other news, I feel so horrible because I fail so much in pokemonathon XD I posted like nuts there at first but now my pace is really slow, yet I have next ones always sketched on my table. Getting the time for painting them is different task though ;;


( buncha originals, comic things and some zelda )

I have this plan, how to most often update this journal, and that is to most simply leave from my useless finnish lj. I only use it to stalk friends anyway which I might aswell do here <:

Just this one for nowww
I feel like this hot idle July is draining all my energy, for some reason, I just want to sleep all the time. And drawing seems annoyingly difficult baww ;^;

( BUCK AND BELIAL YES )